Pissed OFF

I’m pissed. I had a tender conversation with a colleague in the wine industry last night. She was in the depth of anguish caused by the negative impact of the Booze Bitch, stuck in the horrific mix of anxiety, despair, and depression. I so vividly remember feeling defeated and defenseless in the war against theContinue reading “Pissed OFF”

We need each other

Last night I met with a circle of close women friends, my “Diva Dinner Group”, in a park with social distancing and all our own supplies, for the first time in several months. We have been meeting as a group for almost 11 years, at restaurants originally and then at each other’s homes, celebrating birthdaysContinue reading “We need each other”

Relationship

I was pondering this morning a memory of something I had shared, that surprised me, with a couple of very close friends. What I had shared was the realization that I would be willing to give up (forever!) drinking alcohol for a man I dearly love, if he were to choose to give up booze,Continue reading “Relationship”

The Struggle

Day 37 Alcohol Free. I did not realize the extent of the sense of loss and grief/ discomfort I would experience throughout this alcohol free journey. I had not yet learned that letting go of a steady (albeit highly dysfunctional) companion would feel so odd. Not just hard, not just sad, nor merely lonely- butContinue reading “The Struggle”

The Breakup

…a letter to my “Ex” Dear Alcohol, Over three decades of loyalty to you and now I see those years were filled with lies, deception, grief and despair. You came wrapped in pretty packaging, The Temptress. I thought being a wine connoisseur and so steeped in your culture and romance meant I could enjoy youContinue reading “The Breakup”