I guess this is the Honeymoon Period. The time of sobriety when the whole wide world is my oyster. I awaken in the morning filled with joy and inspiration, feeling so good, eager to tackle the day. Great big (and lots of little) blessings find their way to me all day long. I am letting go of what no longer serves me and making room for all the magic. I am living in the overflow of joy, feeling it spill out from all parts of me. Gratitude is pouring forth from the bursting rainclouds of blessings that live in the center of my heart.
Maybe this Honeymoon Period won’t last. My AA neighbor “warned me” that I will most likely develop cravings for booze and probably fail a time or two, relapse. I don’t think so. I have no illusions of ever going back to drinking. I don’t miss it at all. I have no cravings because I am totally satisfied with my clear mind, the productivity of my high energy, the happiness sobriety brings. I love my alcohol free “cocktails” (mocktails) each afternoon and evening, and I am having a blast creating new ones. Maybe I will feel discouraged here and there (I had a rough day just last Saturday at work! OYE), but now that I have a super solid foundation beneath me, a foundation made of pillars built on being in full integrity with myself, now that I have established a deeper self love than I have ever felt in my life, now that I know I will never go back to being a slave to The Booze Bitch, I won’t feed into the worry that this ecstatically happy place will go away. I have learned to live in the now, the present (it really IS a gift!!), and I am just gonna ride The Happy Wave as long as I can. I have learned to surf in Bliss Ocean, and I pretty much want to spend the majority of my days here. Why wouldn’t I want to hang out here, take in all the wonders that having a clear heart and mind can bring, give and receive happiness at levels I never knew existed?!
Being with discomfort was a big challenge for me. Drinking was my escape from having to deal with all the emotions of worry, fear, shame (the biggest for me!), less-than/not worthy, overwhelm, “I can’t do it-itis”, all the negative, disempowering feelings. Now I know the truth. I can do anything I set my mind to do. The whole world is out there waiting to meet me. I can see all the way to the end of the rainbow where my dreams land. All my great big dreams really can come true because they are anchored in generosity, love, contribution, joy. I could never have imagined that my life would be this full of vitality, ease, flow, and love. I think I’ll go surf another set of these waves, and just hang out here all day long. Want to join me?