Day 57. I have been feeling pretty blissful lately. My energy is over the moon, bursting. I am hiking pretty much every day. I am full of joy. I wake up feeling good, eager for all the things I get to do. I am full of pride. I am super productive, I am getting things done! I am not sitting on my butt for hours at a time. Amazing! I am excited to be getting my body back, inside and outside. The pool reopens Monday and I can hardly wait to swim again, knowing I will get myself there nice and early as I no longer have the post-alcohol lethargy. Everything is in flow in my life these days. I trust my future will be blindingly bright because I know that if I can conquer this sobriety monster, SLAY the Booze Bitch, I can do anything.
All well and good. The Honeymoon phase is lovely. All Unicorns and Rainbows. Joy, Love, Freedom, Nirvana. At the same time, I know there will be lots more challenges ahead. I know those tough emotions such as sadness, discouragement, boredom, anxiety, financial worries, depression, life stresses, have not gone away forever. But now if they come visiting, I will sit with them. Maybe some of them will become my friends, teachers to further my healing journey. Yes, that’s it, my emotions will show me things, they’ll point out areas of my life that still have room for growth. And I love growth! Well, most of the time. And if the Booze Bitch comes lurking in an attempt to cast her spell on me, if she uses her mighty powers to try to tempt me back into her lair, my big bad sober fearless wolf will show her teeth and growl fiercely, and the Booze Bitch will go scampering away with her tail between her legs. I know, a booze bitch doesn’t have a tail. But maybe mine does!
In light of my gloriously delicious Honeymoon period, I have created an acronym for sobriety. Here goes:
I have a thing for acronyms. They call to me, they make words even more fun. I love language, and I love expression, and I love sobriety. So there’s my honeymoon-period sobriety acronym, which I will turn to if I ever decide to rethink my choice. I love being sober. I love knowing I can trust myself again. I love the clarity of my mind and heart and soul. I love the dreams I have for my future. I love my family and friends. I love myself again, and that’s absolutely priceless. This sober journey is understated, and this is just the beginning.
Cheers to that!